Monday, August 12, 2013

A Near Thing

My lower left leg and foot - cellulitis

I feel well enough to say that at long last I have finally turned the corner on my recent brush with death. It is strange reading the last entry in this blog, at the end of March 2013, because of the allusion to our general well-being. Little did I realise that I was about to be hospitalised a few days later.

Never spent a night in a hospital in my entire life until this; I was even born at home. The diagnosis was  cellulitis in the left leg which had ballooned in the course of a few days and was horribly discoloured and looked truly hideous plus I had fever. So I was admitted to The Riverside Hospital in Bacolod City. Looking back I am glad I got to hospital when I did as it might have been even more serious had I waited any longer.

Cellulitis is a serious subcutaneous, bacterial infection of soft tissue, no relationship as far as I know to the common female complaints relating to cellulite! The above shot says it all. How did I get it? Not really sure. The most likely scenario is that it came from an untreated small cut on the sole of my foot sustained birdwatching on the mudflats near Sum-ag. However it could have been an insect bite or some other unknown cause. A week earlier I went to hospital as I was feeling a bit under the weather and showed the doctor my foot and explained what had happened. The doctors were non-commital and more concerned about high blood pressure. Paracetamol and rest was ordered.

Fortunately intravenous antibiotics brought the infection under control and my fever went after a few days. However, the doctors proposed debridement, a form of surgical cleaning, as a more aggressive means of removing the external signs of the infection. I agreed to this and had a first ever surgical procedure with a general anaesthetic. In retrospect this was really a superficial debridement, a sort of scrape of the surface of the affected areas. The surgeon expressed satisfaction with the results and after a week or so I was adjudged to be well enough for discharge. I was left with a wound on my left instep running from the ankle bone but the surgeon assured me this would heal in time.

Over the next couple of weeks my left leg healed well but my left foot didn't and it produced a fair amount of discharge. I can't confess to having been a good patient either as I picked at the scab. I continued to see the surgeon, however, and he seemed pleased with progress. We returned to Thailand at the end of our scheduled holiday. On a hunch I decided to consult a local doctor in Ratchaburi on our return at the end of April. I just didn't feel happy about my foot. He didn't mess around - he told me to proceed immediately to the hospital as he believed I had Necrotising Fasciitis ("NF"). The good doctor didn't even charge me for the consultation.

So I was admitted to Ratchaburi Hospital that same night. I was fairly anxious as I knew NF was a potentially fatal infection. In short it is a soft tissue bacterial infection, a type of gangrene, spreading dead cells;  it is virulent and powerful and as well as intravenous antibiotics, surgery is required to remove the dead cells.

I was seen that evening by an intern; he said there were two options: hook me up to antibiotics and observe me for three days or proceed with debridement. I asked him when he proposed to carry out the debridement and he replied "This evening", which was not what I was expecting! So after a brief discussion with Luna I decided to go for debridement on the basis that time was of the essence.

Over the next five days I had a further two debridements which were wholly different in character from what I had undergone in The Philippines; they really went in deep. I remember seeing a deep dark cavity in my left instep when they opened the dressing three days after the final debridement. How will they ever close this, I remember thinking.

However I was surprised when the doctor told me I could go home for a few days; he advised that all the dead, infected cells had been excised but that they would need to wait for a few days just to be sure that the had got rid of the infection; then they would perform a skin graft. I was delirious to be able to go home and also to be getting better.

By this time I had checked out NF online and was very aware of what a serious matter it was with a 30% fatality rate - that was far too high for my comfort! I would strongly advise you to desist from researching your ailments online while in hospital - it really is scary. My Thai fellow patients have a much more sensible approach; they come in, sleep, get treated, convalesce and go home and they do not appear to ask any questions.

A few days later I went back to hospital and the doctor confirmed the wound was clear of infection; I was surprised to see that the cavity was full of new tissue. I was also delighted to be free of the infection. So the following day I was taken to theatre for a skin graft. As is usually the case following the procedure, the skin graft site was more painful than the wound site. I was confined to my bed for ten days with my foot in a plaster cast, a terribly frustrating experience.

Alas when the dressing and plaster cast were finally removed the skin graft had only partially taken. I was given the option of a further skin graft or to allow the wound to heal naturally. After consideration I opted for the latter. My heart rate and blood pressure had gone through the roof while in hospital and I was very fearful about the consequences of a further surgical procedure and general anaesthetic. A week later I was discharged with instructions for the wound to be dressed every three days. This takes us to the end of May.

The first occasion I had the wound dressed was a nightmare - I went to an external clinic, part of the hospital, where a nurse scraped the wound with a metal instrument. I didn't like the look of the wound either. So I proceeded immediately to the main hospital and was re-admitted through the emergency room. The staff there were concerned about re-infection and given my recent history didn't want to take any chances.

So another ten days in hospital on intravenous antibiotics. I had a major scare when a lab culture report indicated traces of bacteria known as "A. baum" or acinetobacter baumanii; check this bacteria out on google if you want to scare yourself shitless, which is exactly what I did and how I made myself feel! A blood test, however, revealed, the bacteria had not got into my bloodstream and so normal dressing and cleaning of the wound solved the problem. Subsequent pathology reports indicated no growth. Phew! I was finally discharged on 10th June 2013.

On discharge I decided to attend a different hospital for wound cleaning and dressing. I went to Muang Ratch hospital, a local private hospital and I must say it made a big difference. The doctor there, Dr Ananch, recommended daily cleaning and dressing which he supervised; indeed he inspected the wound every day.

There have been a couple of setbacks requiring precautionary antibiotics. Basically there is no skin over the wound area by virtue of the failure of the skin graft. The medics have advised that the wound will nevertheless close and form a scar. To date this has been a slow process. A small part of the wound has opened twice. However over the last few days the wound has fully closed and it feels wholly different in character. I still get some inflammation and swelling, depending on activity, but much less than, say, a month ago.

It would be hard to convey the range of emotions and feelings that I have experienced over the last few months. Luna, my wife, has been a tower of strength and she has coped brilliantly with all the pressures and demands that suddenly fell on her; special thanks to Mark, a teaching colleague, who drove for Luna during my hospitalisation and incapacity and enabled her life to proceed as normally as possible. I've always felt confident about our relationship and hope I can reciprocate if the roles are ever reversed. This experience served to underline something of the sacred mystery of marriage that the Bishop of Ratchaburi talked about when he married us five years ago.

My sister Katherine in Scotland was a great source of support, phoning virtually every day and even threatening to come out; likewise my friend Tony from Scotland made regular phone calls and emails. Many other relatives and friends came to visit and kept in touch and kept me going. The doctors, nurses and auxiliary staff at Ratchaburi Hospital were really excellent, too. I don't think they have had much experience of caring for Westerners but if I was to get sick again I would have little hesitation in being admitted there.

I had some moments of despair too and at times a real fear of dying, based on nothing other than an awareness of the seriousness of the infection and the possibility of it suddenly erupting or re-erupting. I have lived in constant fear of fever and high body temperature over these last few months; both indicators of bacterial infection. Also concerns about the continued effectiveness of antibiotics in the event of re-infection due to the amount of the stuff that has already been pumped into me over the last few months. I have faith in God, I would like to tell you it was unshakeable, but I need to say I had moments of doubt, when fear gripped me and I didn't like being in thrall to it one bit.

Nurses were responsible for two of my setbacks by quite literally attacking my wound. One, as mentioned above, scraped the wound with a piece of metal and another took to cutting away the dead tissue from around the wound and in so doing cut into a live part of the wound. I am not going to be over critical - they were doing what they normally do and probably had no idea of my background.

There were moments when I felt the best thing to do would be to get on a plane and get back to the UK as quickly as possible. However in the cold light of day I would have to say my treatment overall was good and most importantly I am alive, I have all my limbs, I don't have any infection and I should be back to full capacity in the near future. I think I might have benefitted from better advice about managing the wound after discharge from both hospitals.

I also think I probably tried to do too much too soon as I was under the impression that this is what the doctors wanted; I could say this equally of the doctors in both The Philippines and Thailand. This wasn't actually what they wanted but it is what I believed they were advising. I think they could also have given better advice about caring for the wound. I say this because in effect I ended up with a chronic wound. But let me stress, overall, I am not complaining.

Finally it cost a lot of money, in total about £4,000 GBP to date; half of this was covered by my own insurance. Fortunately we had some savings so were able to cover those costs which were not insured: the only problem is I didn't know I wasn't covered and that has caused some rancour and left a bad taste in my mouth. Looking on the bright side, I am on the mend, I have managed to get my BP and heart rate under control again, and I am feeling a lot brighter and more optimistic.

There is no moral to this story. I think I was just unlucky. I don't think I was irresponsible or significantly contributed to what happened. I don't doubt that I will go galloping to an emergency room if I sustain cut(s) again, no matter how slight. But an experience and I am glad to be on the road to recovery.




Sunday, March 31, 2013

The Last Year

We are currently on holiday in The Philippines and it has taken these last two weeks here to relax and wind down following a difficult year in Thailand on the work front. Fortunately we have four weeks remaining before our return.

Let me state the important stuff. We are all alive and well. Margaret is a joy and gives us much happiness. Benny is a perfect monster as befits a three year old. However much our children "take" I have to say what they "give" in return is immeasurably greater. It's a joy to watch these children grow and develop and to be around them night and day. A few days ago we were away for two nights and this was the first time we had left them - I think we started to miss them as the second night approached!

Thailand is an excellent place to raise young children. Of course both here and in Thailand our kids are like small celebrities - people love to look at our kids and strangers even ask to take their photographs; in part this is because they are so fair-skinned. Benny has a mop of curls reminiscent of Dennis the Menace as well as being very "guapo" - so in Thailand, where the guidebooks tell you not to touch people's heads as it is considered the most sacred part of the human anatomy Benny sometimes can have fifty people a day touching his hair. I understand why this frustrates him and so when people try to talk to him he shouts :"No!"

The work situation was intolerable and has been stagnating for a few years after a joyful first year. I am a little hopeful that we may be in the process of turning the corner on this difficult period. I weep for the parents and children. I think they deserve so much better. It is not unreasonable to want to provide your children with a decent start in life by providing them with a good education. This is a transcendent value,  universal - it would be an unusual parent who would not want the best for their kids.

In short I have worked in an environment where I believe some of my colleagues would struggle to secure employment stacking shelves in supermarkets. We are good at quantity in Thailand and indeed often confuse it with quality. The real problem is very few around me have any sense of quality. I have made the cardinal error of challenging some of the nonsense and I stand by that action. Challenge, however, really doesn't work in this society especially not by a white caucasian.

Don't challenge. That's the learning point. Best strategy is to bite your tongue. In effect I have learned that the best thing I can do is to do my best in every class for my students. It troubles me that this nonsense has been going down in a Catholic school to boot. Of course this isn't really a surprise, is it?! Pretty much consistent with abuse in general.

However I have survived stressful as it has been. Life in Thailand remains good. However work is a very large part of my life so my frustrations have been a bit unsettling. But we are still here although we are actually in The Philippines right now and I am looking forward to a happier year.


Saturday, October 13, 2012

Life in Thailand.......

There are a number of reasons why I have not posted much here for some time. I am sorry to say that one factor undoubtedly has been the increasing frustration I have felt at work. Sorry to say it has become a bit of a nightmare with management changes and high levels of incompetence. Sort of stuff that I have found very challenging and made me ask questions about whether it is in our interests to stay here for much longer. So it hasn't been paradise! Of course I am nevertheless a very busy person with a wife, two kids and of course a continuing love of birds and wild life. These have been my priorities and focus.

It's a simple, undeniable truth that I could never have made a better choice of a wife than Luna. I am a fortunate fellow in this respect. I can say loudly that I am a happily married man. I am also happy I was born male; the demands our two kids place on their mother, and I imagine they are little different from the demands children in general place on their mothers, are huge and Luna goes about it all in her usual gentle and calm manner. We don't have any help at home either, so Luna works and then comes home and works. Hopefully we'll find someone to help us and that will alleviate some of the burden. Luna recently celebrated her 40th birthday.

Our kids are strong and healthy and happy. Benedict is growing into quite a character and he is a real conversationalist, enquirer and mimic. ("What doing, Daddy?", "What this Daddy?"........) He goes to nursery school where a large component of his tuition is in English so we don't hear him using much Thai. He's a very handsome little boy with a fair complexion and a head of curly hair. He loves Ben 10 and TV cartoons. His sister, Margaret, is now eight months old; she is undoubtedly my child as she has very white skin. However she is undoubtedly her mother's daughter, too, and one of the joys of my life is observing the interaction between the two. Our children attract enormous attention and interest wherever we go, almost to the point where we could describe them as minor celebrities. It really is amazing .......... strangers often ask if they can take a picture of our kids and of course Benedict knows how to screw up his face and be a monster in such circumstances!


We are currently on a longer than usual school vacation. It really was long over due and very much needed. Right now we are on the road, in Trat, in eastern Thailand, close to the Cambodian border and we are heading to the island of Koh Kood for a few days of rest and relaxation. On my first trip to Thailand almost 14 years ago my first visit outside of Bangkok was to the nearby island of Koh Chang. Then I came through Trat and I have to say I have very little recollection of the place as I literally passed through. One change has been the addition of a large Tesco Lotus store which we visited last night.......!

Whatever, we are still here. Overall our lives are very busy but good. Thailand is a great place to have kids and the positives of living here far outweigh the negatives. Work remains difficult but we shall see what next semester brings and proceed from there.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

More Margaret.....


I am a happy man this morning. I have a great wife who is an equally great mother to our two children. My son Benedict is amazing. He has coped brilliantly with his sister's birth and the disruption this has entailed to his little life. No histrionics, plain sailing really. He just doesn't understand he can't play with his little sister at this stage in her life and that jumping up and down on his mother's bed is rather painful for her post surgery! Margaret is very well as is Luna. In the background Jona, or Lola as we call her ( "Granny" or "Nan" in Ilonco), is doing sterling work in helping us as well as enjoying her first grand-daughter.

Friday, February 10, 2012

Margaret


Margaret Jona Charlotte Baradero Brett came into this world this morning at the propitious time of 06:54h. She weighed in at 3.400 kg and is making plenty of noise. In other words she is a picture of health and vitality. Luna is in good form, as well as can be expected, given that she has just undergone a Caesarian section. Baby's name: Margaret Jona after our respective mothers, Charlotte after my father Charles who would have been 87 today were he alive, Baradero because it is a filipino custom to give children their mother's family name and her surname is mine. Benedict is a little bewildered but coping very well. Last night was his first night ever without his Mum and I managed to get him to sleep. No real histrionics. I spent the night at the hospital with Luna and Jona told me he woke about 03:30 asked where I was, then his mother, had some milk and went back to sleep. I showed him some photos of Margaret this morning and he said "Baby Margaret". I took Benedict to nursery after breakfast and that will keep him occupied for most of the day; he can meet up with his mother and sister this afternoon. Benedict weighed in at 2.700 kg on birth so Margaret is a big baby in comparison. Jona is very happy because for her it is a first grand daughter, after six grandsons. Right there will be more later. But let me say thanks be to God that Mum and daughter are well and we are all well too.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Benedict

Benedict continues to grow and grow and grow; he's a delightful boy with a bit of mischief! We love him!


Saturday, December 24, 2011

Merry Christmas

A Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you all from all of us here in Ratchaburi. With Luna over seven months into her pregnancy we will be taking it very easy this year with the emphasis on rest and relaxation. Our school term ended yesterday and it's very welcome to have about 10 days off. We will probably go to Mass Christmas morning: easier than Midnight Mass with no disruption to his nocturnal routine. We will have a nice meal somewhere, maybe even a trip to Suan Pueng, and then just take it nice and easy.

One of the things I always like to do at Christmas is take in the Festival of Nine Lessons and Carols from Kings' College, Cambridge. It is broadcast on BBC Radio World Service which is piped into our home by cable TV so at 22:00h that's what I'll be listening to. I like the sacred and holy side of Christmas and I don't think that it gets more sacred and holy than this.

New Year is the big holiday in Thailand at this time of the year. Christmas Day is business as usual. But the western New Year is probably the second biggest holiday in Thailand after the Thai New Year in April. With the exception of Christian schools there will be no closures. Benedict will be at nursery, which means Luna and Jona will get a bit of a break.

I am not feeling 100% with a heavy cold and feeling a bit run down. However I am hoping a bit of rest will do the trick. So once more Merry Christmas to you and yours.